entry 1

Ok, so why am I doing this, so I can finally work through all this carp known as being fat...am I fat, I dunno, I eat healthy I work out...I guess I was one of the fat, so far I have nearly lost 20kgs but its not enough for me...no I'm no a wasting away pretty girl who is on the strive for thin, skeleton...i'm looking for that place where I feel comfortable with me, and I'm not there yet. And I so want to be. This is not only a quest for physical transformation, this is a quest to find the inner beauty and peace within me which I can't ever remeber having. I'm not entierly sure how I plan to use you yet, but I already feel good just writing this....This is my comitment to myself and to anyone else who sees this... I plan to make this transformation, on my own and for me...cos I feel that it is the only way that it can work.
So here I begin in hope that by puuting my feelings all out there I may be able to work out me how to find the happiness that I crave...and to be comfortable with who I am, how I look and so forth...and with that I go forth on this journey.