bad

Its been a bad, bad day. I feel like, I feel like shit, so bad that the thoughts flooded into my minds...if only I was brave enough to do it, like I used to be, at least i'm not on watch anymore. All I did was eat today, it was my comforter...All I can do now is lay here resisting the depressive sleep (I know i'll wake up feeling worse) try not to eat anymore, and hope this stage goes fast...Fucccccccccckkkkkkkkkk....I hate it