panic

It was a horrible morning in the world of fat...its never happened before, but this morning I had my first big panic attack over being fat. I looked in the mirror it was like it was blurred, I looked soooooooooo huge. It felt like I couldn't breath, I didn't know where to turn, I didn't know where to look....I just wanted the fat off. I dont understand, i've been eating better, taking these diet pills, why am I more fat than ever?
I'm seriously going crazy...gonna exercise...havent done that in a while..maybe it'll help, probably not!